its been well over a year since I've written in this space. my reasoning: chaos.
who knew that i could change and struggle so much in a year.
but after getting coffee with a friend I realized that i have been silent in writing and silent in life over the past year due to fear, shame, struggle, and change.
so this is my attempt to begin to find my voice again, in a crazy and fun and broken and amazing world. a voice that i have lost and want to regain again. and for me, i think part of that process is using it. is being real about my thoughts, my interactions, my struggles, and my hopes.
this is what i know im not doing: i will not use this space to be sure, i will not use this space to appear to be something im not, and i will not use this space for yet another selfish see "how awesome i am" through what i write.
this will be the musings of a christian, who is annoyed with faith and currently cant stand being in church, but also loves God and stands behind her faith, a social worker who wants to do justice but struggles to actually have a passion for it, for a woman who wants to be in control but also be pursued, for an individual who desires for independence and community, for a nobody who deeply desires to be known and yes..famous (because lets be honest, ive always wanted it!) and for a human who sees brokenness everywhere, but so often only sees my own. so yeah, i guess this is me figuring out how to be me.
who knew that i could change and struggle so much in a year.
but after getting coffee with a friend I realized that i have been silent in writing and silent in life over the past year due to fear, shame, struggle, and change.
so this is my attempt to begin to find my voice again, in a crazy and fun and broken and amazing world. a voice that i have lost and want to regain again. and for me, i think part of that process is using it. is being real about my thoughts, my interactions, my struggles, and my hopes.
this is what i know im not doing: i will not use this space to be sure, i will not use this space to appear to be something im not, and i will not use this space for yet another selfish see "how awesome i am" through what i write.
this will be the musings of a christian, who is annoyed with faith and currently cant stand being in church, but also loves God and stands behind her faith, a social worker who wants to do justice but struggles to actually have a passion for it, for a woman who wants to be in control but also be pursued, for an individual who desires for independence and community, for a nobody who deeply desires to be known and yes..famous (because lets be honest, ive always wanted it!) and for a human who sees brokenness everywhere, but so often only sees my own. so yeah, i guess this is me figuring out how to be me.
1 comment:
I should be angry because you've added yet another blog to my distraction list, but I just can't muster up anything other than pure excitement! Glad you are writing. I know the Lord will continue to bless your search for Him and your dedication to being real in the process. Love love love.
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