bereshit

means beginning in hebrew. the word beginning has resonated with me for the past year. the idea that no matter where we are at in life, what we are doing, or who we are becoming...we can always start over. There is always a new beginning to be had. i've been thinking about beginnings in the aspect of faith and how the Lord is always there to start over with us, to take that first step over and over again.

however, beginning comes to mind yet again as i start my voyage into the unknown. March 3, 2010 i gave my resignation to my job where i've been for almost 3 years. the moment i told my boss i was leaving (in a month in a half..so not for awhile) i felt free and alive. its as if all of my plans were really going to happen. i've been talking about traveling to europe for years and the past 7 months i've talked alot about this trip and now..it is actually becoming a reality and i'm kinda freakin out.

i'm currently sitting in my room, that continues to become less and less as i get rid of furniture, clothes, and random items i find in my closet. its amazing how a empty room can cause a person to be suddenly contemplative about life. as i sat on my bed and looked at my white walls i couldnt help but think how an era has ended and yet another beginning has started. for the next 2 months i'm sleeping on couches and on floors in order to save money for my trip and honestly, im kinda excited for it. im excited to be sleeping over at my friends houses and just sharing life with them.

the closer my departure date comes the harder it is getting for me to leave this place. its ironic because for so long ive been ready to leave seattle and try something new and now, i dont know. i guess im hoping this trip will open my eyes to what it is God is doing in my life and moving me towards. at this point, i have no idea what im doing...i guess thats what a leap of faith is:) trusting God....definitely gonna be a battle with my controlling side but a battle worth the scars and injuries.

bereshit
another beginning
another foot step towards empty space
with hope and faith that it will be filled

both feet are on the ground.

until next time.