hola from espana. i am in madrid, and it is hot and i love it. granted i didnt love it when i was carrying a 40lb pack on my back BUT now that i dont have all that weight i feel much better!
i have mixed feelings about being in spain and starting my 30 day journey around southern europe. being at labri for almost 2 months really has put me in a different mind set than when i first started traveling. i really dont like leaving places. but ironically, i do it all the time. especially in the USA. we are so accostumed to leaving that the concept of staying i think scares a lot of people..me included. anyways, labri was a such a great space for me. i was able to explore questions and explore myself and be in community all at the same time. the idea of traveling alone does not sound appealing after being in a close contact with around 20 people everyday. i dont want to travel around and party and i really dont feel like moving that much at the moment either. im tired and i think somehwat in the process of working through being away from the UK and the family i had there. travelings appeal has lost its glory in someways. even as i sit here in my hostel the guy on the computer next me said "well its 4, its drinking time!" and to be honest..im just not there. i dont want that. so fingers crossed i will meet people who want more out of life than just drinking because that is not what i feel like doing.
however what i am excited about..is just being alone and being able to process the past 2 months. im excited to journal and read and relax. i am excited to go on walks, sit in parks, eat amazing food, and continue to do the challenges people have given me. i know that being alone will also be difficult BUT i feel like im on my own desert journey...like the israelites and Jesus. i´ve been in a place of exploring and learning about God and now i am literally going to wander and continue to grow and seek him. at times it scares me but other times, im excited to see what God will teach or show me too. So as i have left labri I am sad because im leaving a family, and a shelter that has allowed me to be me and who knows if i will see them again on this side of life BUT i am excited as well to put into practice ideas im thinking about it and continuing to be pushed by the Lord.
so 30 days of wandering....has started. as my tattoo says...new journeys with the Lord.
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